Thursday, January 8, 2009

thoughts from today

**WARNING ~ LOTS of rambling ahead. If you get bored easy, then just skip this post. It's mostly me just thinking "outloud" on my blog**

Nothing significant happened today which allowed me more time than usual to just think about random things, which in turn has led to this post.

I like to read in bed every night before I go to sleep. It helps me wind down from the day. If I don't read, I have a hard time going to sleep. When I woke up this morning, I was thinking about the book that I am reading right now. My mom gave it to me for my birthday last year, which was in February so I've had it almost a year. I started reading it but then it got shoved to the side and I just recently found it again. It's titled Life Lessons for Busy Moms. The authors of all the Chicken Soup books helped write it but there are several authors. I only read about 20 pages last night but what I read got me really thinking about my girls and how much I actually show them that I love them. I know that I love them more than anything else in this world and that I would do anything for them but do they know this? Of course Kinsley is too young to really understand all this but Aliyah is not and it's never too early to start. I do make sure that I hug my girls on a daily basis as well as I tell them that I love them. I love to just sit and cuddle with them and I try to do that every day, even if it is for only a few minutes. However, I wonder if I hug them and tell them that I love them enough. One hug a day is not enough to me. The book goes into detail about how much a simple little hug can mean and to a child, a hug is a tremendous gift. So, one of my goals for 2009 is to hug (more than once) and cuddle with my girls as much as I can each and every day. I'm also going to work on not becoming so stressed over little messes and just enjoy the littleness of my girls. (Is littleness even a word? If not, I just made it a word ;) When I start to stress about the dishes, the laundry, the beds not made, or the toys everywhere, I will stop myself and read this poem that is written in the front of the book:

Too Busy

The dishes are still in the sink,
Dirty laundry is piled high
Somehow the entire day,
Seemed to just fly by.
I made a "to-do" list,
I meant to follow through,
But there were other tasks,
That needed attention too.
Like cheering on my daughter,
As she took first steps into my arms,
Making sure she stayed safe,
From all potential harms.
Cuddling on the couch,
And reading a favorite story,
Helping her explore the world,
And marvel at all its glory.
So the chores will have to wait.
They aren't that important anyway.
Because I was simply too busy,
Loving my child today.
~ Sabrina A. Taylor

I strongly encourage this book to all you busy mommies out there. It will really get you thinking about how you do things and how you react to things in life.

One thing I did today was clean out Aliyah's dresser. After all the new clothes she got for Christmas, there wasn't enough room in her dresser for all her clothes. She still had some summer clothes that hadn't been put away yet. Usually I'm on top of organizing the girls' clothes but these last couple of months have been so hectic that I haven't gotten much of anything done. Slowly, I will catch up. I am an organization freak and I feel like my house is just one jumbled mess right now. Anyway - back to the clothes. Told you I was rambling in this post. I realized today that I have an addiction to buying my girls clothes. Aliyah has clothes that I forgot she even had. I ended up filling a laundry basket full of clothes to get rid of. I had a small pile of clothes to keep for Kinsley and all the summer clothes that I thought would still fit this summer went into the out-of-season tote. And her drawers are still pretty full. And she has a closet full of clothes hanging out, which are mostly dresses.

Kinsley has been growing so fast that I feel like I can't keep up with her. As soon as I get enough clothes in one size, she outgrows that size and then she has nothing again. I feel like I've been buying her clothes constantly since she was born. She is currently in a size 12 months and even some 12 months stuff doesn't fit her! She's just so darn chubby, but we love her! She got a pair of jeans for Christmas from a friend and they were 12 months. I never imagined they wouldn't fit but when I went to put them on, they wouldn't even go over her thighs! Luckily, I found a tote full of winter clothes that I had saved from Aliyah that will fit Kinsley now and hopefully get us through the rest of winter. She has plenty of clothes right now, as long as she doesn't jump to a size 18 months within the next month.

Just to prove my addiction to baby/kids clothes, here is a picture of Kinsley's closet I took before she was even born. That's not the whole closet either, it goes back farther. She didn't even get to wear all her newborn and 0-3 month clothes. Good thing I don't pay full price for anything. I always shop clearance, used clothing stores, or yard sales.

I told Brandon today that if I try to buy the girls any clothes within the next month to stop me...LOL! We'll see if it works ;)
Well it's getting late and I think I've rambled enough for tonight so I'm off to bed.

2 comments:

Vita said...

Angelica, I know exactly how you feel. These are issues I deal with daily! I always feel like I need to STOP and LOVE my kids. I love and cuddle them all the time. I lay in bed with them and wake them up slowly and put them to bed rubbing their backs and cuddling them. It takes alot of effort to leave the dishes in the sink or not to mop and sweep every day. So if you ever come over and my house is a mess you know why!

Love ya! Vita

Ps. Have you used up all those diapers?

Tereza said...

I SO agree with your insight!! I'd love to read that book. Do you think amazon would have it?